something new

following a day that didnt go so well i find myself feeling quite optimistic. i have a thirst for adventure and something new. i think i am going to plan on a little road trip. i feel the need to try something new. maybe a place where i have never been. i have been through most of the east coast and so i think its time that i try elsewhere. i want to keep my options open. i suppose now its time for a little planning. i havent decided if its going to be a solo road trip, tista will be coming with me of course!

south carolina

So now im here in myrtle beach south carolina. I kind of came here on a whim and think its turning out good. I left everything for a promise to a new better life. Surprisingly im doing pretty good here. I do spend a lot of time alone, even when im with people, but I do feel alone a lot. I do not know really anyone here, I have family but no friends. I personally am amazed at how well I am doing here. I miss my dog more than anything, I had to leave him in Binghamton until I found my own place that will allow dogs, I think about him everyday, I brought with me one of his tags and I carry it on my keychain to remember him. I know I will get him back soon, hes my motivation. I think its going so well here because I do have a friend that I stay in contact with, and I think shes keeping me feeling safe, and happy. She is the light at the end of the tunnel for me. She is a thought, an image of what I want in my life. She is pure, and something to look foreward to. She is proof that there are people out there that have the best intentions. She is my world.

I found a job and it seems like everything is going good. I guess that’s up to my manager to decide. Although I am not a huge fan of the people I work with its still fun to be working there. Its not that they are bad people, just people I am not used to.

This is all temporary afterall, I have other plans in my life, those plans will be brought to reality soon enough, until then I have a glimour of hope that keeps me going, until then I will do the best with what im given, not ask for too much, I don’t want to be greedy, I have to be patient, even though I really don’t want to be. But I must, I cant force somethings, something are best kept at bay and letting them come in with the current until the time is right for me to have them, and to experience them. I do love my life though, ill sit in the dark times with knowledge that the lighter days will be coming, I will learn the lifes lessons. Live life to the fullest for today while keeping a hand open to welcome tomorrow.

seven more days....

i have seven more days until the rest of my life. in seven days i will be on the road towards myrtle beach, south carolina. seven more days until the start of a possible new life, new location, new summers, new friends, new memories, new beginnings, new futures, new possibilities. seven more days until my closest naihbor will be the ocean. seven more days until i have to leave my dog and my friends, and family behind for a little while. ill be back to get tista, and to visit family, but until then i must take on the road by myself. i hope all goes well. i hope my car makes it, its been good to me.
i will be going down there with very little money, and no job. but i am hopeful, i am hopeful that things will happen, and that my future will be a great one, this is one small step towards the life i want to build for myself and others. this is really going to be my second chance. a new beginning, i wont let it down, i will learn, and love, and be so very thankful for what was given to me, and what i must work for, i will have to be patient for somethings to happen, but ill keep a possitive attitude and see what happens, until then i will be looking foreward to see this image in person

no matter what

whatever gets thrown your way, you still manage to find a way to make things better. no matter what happens, theres still an outcome where things get better. no matter what you work towards, there will be an end result. no matter how much pain you feel, there will always be an infinite amount of happiness coming your way. when times seem like there is no hope, no future, life has a way of proving you differently. no matter how happy you thought you once were, there is always more happiness than you even knew existed. with all of the impossibilities there are more things out there to prove that nothing is impossible, no matter how many things drag you down, and push you through the dirt, and make you hurt, and make you bleed, and make you cry, there is always a hand willing to help you up, brush you off, clean your wounds, help you feel better, no matter how much you think you loved someone, there is always someone out there that will love you more, and will be better suited for you. i am lucky, i realize all this, and i see whats ahead of me, and that i have found that, that of which i have always wanted, that of which i have always deserved, that of which i didnt think is possible. it is out there, and i found it.

my bike ride with you (you were in my heart)

i apologize in advance for not having great pictures, i swear that its so much better in person.

so i went on a bike ride, a very long bike ride. it was great! it was sunny and warm, and i toured my city...

im sorry that i didnt take any pictures of antique row, i started taking pictures late into the bike ride...



this is what made me start taking pictures, because it reminded me of you!
and so i just started taking pictures so i could share it with you!
and i kept riding my bike, taking pictures, as many as i could, so i could try to share every inch with you.

and so i kept riding, under a bridge...


its nothing impressive, but i felt the need to share it with you...



and so i kept riding, thinking about you the entire time, and how this ride would be even better with you by my side, and we wouldnt even need to stop, because we are on bikes and we are free!



we will eventually pass a carousel that is being all fixed up... it doesnt look too great now, but when i bring you here it will!



do you like carousels? did you know that new york is the carousel capital of the world?

but i kept moving...



and moving...



and i almost reached my destination, and then i stumbled upon something, something i forgot, until i thought about you again, and it reminded me about that thing i forgot, so i went a little off my path to share with you this huge cemetary...
and i took some pictures....
but they arent nearly as good as yours =D












p.s. would you like to picnic here? i know its in the middle of the road but i think it would be cute =]

future with my love

so i found this amazing girl...



or she found me, or we found eachother, or we were brought together by something i cant put into words.

we started talking...

and it turned out that we have similar interests...

for example...

this amazing girl likes adventures, adventures in the woods..




and this amazing girl also wants to live in the woods someday, in a tree...



this amazing girl and i want the same things out of life, like to walk on the beach and collect sea shells..



this amazing girl also loves antique stores, like me...



this amazing girl also likes adventures in cemetaries...



this amazing girl and i have a life planned out, it will include the following...

making and selling things full time on Etsy...



visiting the Redwoods...



making all of the things we may need, like funiture...



going on bike trips..



all of this and more will come true! the story is still being written, stay tuned for more!

Totty

i have an alter ego, his name is totty, he is a giant tator tot, he likes to disco dance, wave at people, and attempt to moonwalk. totty also enjoys posing for pictures for people. totty likes to hangout in front of sonic drive ins, and mock motocyclers as they sit at stop lights, its all in good fun though because totty likes motorcyclists, totty also likes to make dogs bark as they are riding in cars down the road.... here is a picture of totty.